deprived

ffffound

day 4 of inadequate sleep.everything moves at a dreamy pace and this morning's events are like distant memories.my thoughts are processed at a Pentium I pace my brain hurts.even humor fails.

it might take its toll sooner than later.i don't like the idea of having to go to the doctor again and have him tell me that i'm not taking good care of myself.i don't like telling him that i stopped taking the vitamins he prescribed one week after the checkup.

anyway i came across an article enumerating the serious consequences of sleep deprivation.this convinced me to do something about it.

i also found the top ten sleep thieves. i am so guilty of number 1.

sleep

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i was terrified of not being able to sleep last night. terrified.
on my way home, i nearly cried (again!).
my heart drummed in my chest.
too fast.
too damn fast.

it was so familiar.
and it only meant trouble.
i dread lying on my bed all night and watching the window get light.
a sleepless night could only mean a crappy day.and two crappy days in a row means going crazy.and going crazy means losing more sleep.it's a a vicious cycle.


things are not going so well right now.and the worries that keep me up at night are not of matters of the heart.
more like matters of life.bills,due dates,people getting old and sick,young girls to be a role model to,shoes to buy,birthday promises,dreams that always seem to slip away...


thankfully,after a prayer and thirty minutes of writing my lids began to droop.and in another thirty minutes,sleep came.