i know exactly what you're up to.

when i was younger,i used to fathom why some guys would stay two steps behind me even when we're walking together.

as i got older,i realized that while my front bumper is humble, i've been blessed with lovely humps behind.

it used to be flattering(okay okay,it is flattering),knowing that guys are checking you out,but it also makes me feel super conscious! especially when i'm wearing those really tight jeans!

i get it when you do it once.

curious right?
maybe even tempting.

i understand that you guys are visual creatures.

but to do it everytime we walk together is just uncomfortable.

i guess all guys do this. even a friend of mine recently told me that his boyfriend of four years admitted to doing this during their first few months of dating.

dude,thanks.really.but stop sightseeing already because i know what you're up to.

and it's not like my derriere is going to change its shape on a daily or weekly basis.

but again thanks because atleast you notice.and maybe next time, try not to be too obvious.

mid-month slump

welcome to the mid-month slump.
it's a time when the highest of heels can't seem to make my legs long enough,and the cutest of dresses fail me.

blame it on the hormones.really.

only in my case it's not "pre" but rather "post".

i've been fighting the urge the kick off my heeled green suede pumps(i will be never able to justify why i bought them) in exchange of the slippers i have stashed in my bag.and i probably will when i finish this.

actually i had some hope for this day until the time i had to get dressed for work.

first,as i put on my tightest jeans,it ripped on the side.
i changed into a flowy little black dress thinking that it would turn the bad spell around only to realize that i don't have the shoes to match them.
so i pulled out another pair of jeans (which were too tight!no stretch!),donned them and stomped to work.

the nasty episode reminded me of four things that are true mid-month slump or not:
1.i don't have enough shoes.
2.i need a better pair of jeans.
3.i have to stop buying cheap.
4.I NEED TO SHOP.

weekend purchase: purple snakeskin flats

am so in love with them!

it's not their fault that they go so well with the dress i bought a month ago :)

one more thing about me : odds against.

one more thing you MUST understand about me.

i like to test fate or if such thing really exists.

so if the odds are against me, don't expect me to back down.

the more things are unlikely, the more i'll be there.

so if i do something crazy, take this into account.

strange friday

it's friday.it's cold.and i look kinda pregnant in the top i'm wearing.
good thing my hair falls just the way i want it to.

and...
i've been thinking about Fed.
that's strange.very strange.

in the very brief time we've been together,i doubt whether we have forged a relationship of any sort except for friendship.
it's been a week since that funny idea of the kiss was planted into my head.

it's growing i guess.

not like a flower,but like a weed.

and weeds are bad.
they can be verrrrrrry baaaaaaad.

any self respecting gardener will tell you that weeds should be killed.

i don't want him to know.he cannot know.this is just a passing fancy.

things are good the way they are.the way they are nothing.
no reason to spin the world around again when i've barely settled from the last shake.

and now we wait for my resolve to weaken.

just a glimpse

after days of wondering where the hell he is,mr.no-name-yet showed up in the same shirt he was wearing last week.
he seemed surprised to see me. a little out of breath since he used the stairs.
i promised i would smile the next time i see him,but such promises were made to be broken like all other promises.

brrrrr....

i love the cool December nights...
have you noticed that the air really does smell different?
and i don't mean that it smells like christmas (whatever christmas smells like for you)...
there's this certain fragrance that i could not quite catch.
too light to be perfume and too heavy to be just flowers...
and it brings me that giddy feeling.

and oh, i love the lights!
i think the city is much more alive at night than in the day...

with the breeze blowing calmly about...chilly enough to make you wrap your arms around yourself (or have someone wrap theirs around you!) but still comfy to leave your hoodie off...

nights like this never fail to make me smile...

today's headturner

i just can't resist a guy in a nice plaid shirt...
no... i can't resist a guy in a nice shirt,period.

lovely...

i'm feeling lovely today...
is that a sin?

since i woke up this morning,
i've found one reason to smile after another.

cute morning high

my mom woke me up this morning to show me the most unexpected thing.
a pair of tiny marijuana leaf earrings!
she bought it for me yesterday while i was at work.
the surprising bit is that she knew what they were all along!
they are really cool. i see them on jewelry shops all the time and never bought them knowing that my mom would disapprove.
and now i have my first pair ever given by her!
now beat that :)